In July 2015, I went on a month-long volunteer SCUBA expedition for a conservation organization in Southern Leyte. I thought it was simple: I would learn more about marine wildlife and setting up Marine Protected Areas, while doing something I loved – diving!
However, little did I know that this excursion (coupled with reading the desolate first half of a supposedly hopeful New York Times Bestseller “This Changes Everything” by Naomi Klein) would lead me into a rabbit hole of despair. In the book, I wondered what the fate of the planet would be in light of all the seemingly infinite human greed and exploitation. Simultaneously, in real life, I questioned how even well-meaning conservation efforts ultimately failed to achieve their intended results, and in some cases, made matters even worse.
For two weeks after I had gotten back, I was unproductive at work, and questioning the impact of the work I do with MUNI – pingponging between thoughts that a) little lifestyle tweaks were not enough and that I should do more, and that b) perhaps we don’t stand a chance, and I should just not care, just be blissful and happy, and just enjoy what I can while I can.
A recent Facebook post by a friend reminded me about how I eventually got myself out of that funk, and how I continue to keep myself out of that desolate void. (more…)